The Great Sadness

Well, friends, if ever there was a time to be praying for me, this would be it. Somewhere in the last 18 months, I turned the corner into young adulthood. Don't believe the hype. Being a young adult is incredibly overwhelming. I'm searching for what is right and what is wrong.. what is Truth.. where my life is going. Everything is so complicated and messed up right now. I'm exhausted.

"Notice me, take my hand
Why are we strangers when our love is strong?
Why carry on without me?
Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I make believe that you are here
It's the only way I see clear
What have I done?
You seem to move on easy
Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry
At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away
Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby."

I'm freaking out, man!

I definitely move in two weeks. I'm definitely not ready on multiple levels. The Great Sadness is becoming more and more potent. Sigh.

Last Thing - Diana Anid

I'll stay away
Don't have to face this
It's my mistake
And no one's business
I am trying not to want to hurt him
Trying not to start this up again
He's in my way
And no surprises
It's been a day
Somehow survived it
Still I'm trying not to want to hurt him
Trying not to start this up again

It's the last thing that I need right now
Someone to bring me down
I've got a rule up now that he's moved out
No way, no boys allowed
And there's a reason why I keep my distance
Don't think you're going to understand
This is the last thing that I need right now

No need to stay
My choice, I made it
I'll keep away
Don't have to take it
'Cause I'm trying not to want to hurt him
Trying not to start this up again

Don't need a boyfriend
Not one like him
Don't want to be the foolish girl I was
And end up worse again
You can say it's from me
I'll be keeping away
Don't want to be the same foolish girl again

It's the last thing that I need right now
Someone to bring me down
I've got a rule up now that he's moved out
No way, no boys allowed
And there's a reason why I keep my distance
Don't think you're going to understand
This is the last thing that I need right now
I'll stay away
Don't have to face this
It's my mistake
And no one's business