Happy Memorial Day

I downloaded Season 1 of Army Wives tonight. It's amazing how comforting it can be to know you aren't alone. I was on episode 3, and at the very end, the Colonel comes in and tells his wife there's been an accident. You then hear the news start talking about a Blackhawk crashing. It's a show. It's not real. Yet at the sound of those words, everything in me stopped.. I stoppped breathing, I stopped thinking.. the only thing I could feel was the distinct urge to throw up. THAT'S how it feels when you're husband is deployed, and you know that any second, something could go terribly wrong, and he would die. That fear is imbedded so far into you that a TV show says one line and you can feel yourself falling apart from the inside out. Most of you will not even be able to begin to imagine what that's like.. but I wouldn't wish it on anyone.