Saturday, May 3, 2008

Little Miss Obsessive

Ladies and gentleman, 7 WEEKS until Dan comes home for R&R! Very exciting.. and scary. Ha ha. It's not scary for him.. he had an incredible amount of faith in me.. which he should, because I would not stray from him.. I just don't understand how he isn't nervous about seeing me again after a year. Then there's me.. I'm convinced he's going to see me and be like "Why did I marry her again?" Not that he's ever given me a reason to think that way.. I'm just damaged I guess. BUT, I started going to counseling again last week. My counselor's name is Gina Taffi, and she works like, RIGHT on the beach in Solano Beach.. it was eerie to be there though since the shark attack. There was next to nobody in the beach parking lots, and even less on the actual beach. Creepy.

We are attempting to get Mason off the bottle. It's so sad. He's just so cute you want to give him whatever he wants.. but Mandy says that her doctor says that babies should be off the bottle by his or her first birthday, and Mason is like 16 months now, so we're slacking.

I don't have a whole lot to talk about.. My life is revolving around Mason and school right now. I'm leaving you with some quotes that have really stuck with me lately for whatever reason. Take them as you want.
"Then, when I'd washed the dishes, I arranged the magnets on the fridge into a perfect line. Maybe I was developing obsessive-compulsive disorder. The last two magnets - round black untalitarian pieces that were my favorites because they could hold ten sheets of paper to the fridge without breaking a sweat - did not want to cooperate with my fixation. Their polarities were reversed; every time I tried to line the last one up, the other jumped out of place. For some reason - impending mania, perhaps - this really irritated me. Why couldn't they just play nice? Stupid with stubbornness, I kept shoving them together as if I was expecting them to suddenly give up. I could have flipped one over, but that felt like losing. Finally, exasperated at myself more than the magnets, I pulled them from the fridge and held them together with two hands. It took a little effort - they were strong enough to put up a fight - but I forced them to coexist side-by-side. 'See,' I said out loud - talking to unanimate objects, never a good sign - 'That's not so horrible, is it?' I stood there like an idiot for a second, not quite able to admit that I wasn't having any lasting effect against scientific principles. Then, with a sigh, I put the magnets back on the fridge, a foot apart. 'There's no need to be so inflexible,' I muttered. It was still too early, but I decided I'd better get out of the house before the inanimate objects started talking back." - Eclipse by Stephanie Meyer

"And there you see the distinction between our feelings: had he been in my place and I in his, thought I hated him with a hatred that turned my life to gall, I never would have raised a hand against him. You may look incredulous, if you please! I never would have banished him from her society as long as she desired his. The moment her regard ceased, I would have torn his heart out, and drank his blood! But, till then - if you don't believe me, you don't know me - till then, I would have died by inches before I touched a single hair of his head!" - Wuthering Heights

"'And so the lion fell in love with the lamb.'
'What a stupid lamb.'
'What a sick masochistic lion.'" - Twilight by Stephanie Meyer

"We're adults. When did that happen? And how do we make it stop?" - Grey's Anatomy

"'Chin up. Put your shoulders back, walk proud, strut a little. Don't lick your wounds: celebrate them. The scars you bear are the signs of a competitor. You're in a lion fight. Just because you didn't win, doesn't mean you don't know how to roar.'" - Chief of Surgery, Grey's Anatomy

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