Well, I successfully made it back to San Diego. It's so weird coming back here after being in such a small town. I almost immediately felt like the walls were closing in around me. This bizarre feeling, limbo space I am in is making me antsy. I understand now why God does not want us to be lukewarm.. why He doesn't want us to straddle the fence between the world and His Word. It makes things WAY harder than they need to be.
I had a flashback this evening of my second year in college. I had walked up to my friend, Morgan's, house and didn't take my keys. During the time I was over there helping her get ready for this big date she's been looking forward to for months now (it's complicated), Max came home from work. When he left, he locked the door thinking I was asleep in my room. By the time we figured out I was locked out, Max was well on his way to a friend's house who lives like 25 minutes away. He suggested I try the back door. Our apartment sits sort of inside a hill.. our front door is on ground level, but you go downstairs immediately upon entering. I am not coordinated at ALL, so trying to climb across this muddy hill (OF COURSE, the sprinklers had to have already gone off) without killing myself was ridiculous. I'm short, which makes climbing over fences next to impossible sometimes. I did manage to make it in without breaking anything, but I'm getting WAY too old for this sneaking into the house crap. :) It makes me laugh to think that during college when I lived with my parents, I was always sneaking IN rather than out. They always knew where I was, but worried about my lack of sleep and late nights. I know, I know.. I'm SUCH a rebel.
My parents went on a cruise this last week to Mexico, but ended up getting turned around thanks to the swine flu "epidemic." Rather than spending time in the warm sun on nice beaches, they instead got to spend time in San Fransisco. In the rain. At like 40 degrees. Good times.
Remember when you were little and the opposite sex was like the grossest thing EVER? How we all needed to get cootie shots because obviously the opposing gender was INFECTED? I've decided there is definitely something to that theory.
"I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared
It was awesome, but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
And now we're standing in the rain
And nothing is ever going to change
Until you hear, my dear
The 7 things I hate about you
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make my laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I want to be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do?
You make me love you
It's awkward and silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology
When you mean it, I'll believe it
If you text it, I'll delete it
Let's be clear, I'm not coming back
You're taking 7 steps here
The 7 things I hate about you
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make my laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I want to be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do?
You make me love you
And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention the 7 that I like
The 7 things I like about you
Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's
When we kiss, I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hands in mine
When we're intertwined every thing's all right
I want to be with the one that I know
And the 7th thing I like the most that you do?
You make me love you."
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