You're not sorry.

I feel like I need to just sit staring at the wall for a while. No, really. You get to a place where you think that there is no way your heart can be broken into any more pieces.. I hate the place my heart is in right now. I have worked SO hard to handle stress and overwhelming emotions in a healthy way.. and yet here I am again. All I want to do is crawl into my happy place (the bed) with my kids (the dogs) and turn off my cell phone and just be numb. It all just hurts too much. I can't handle all the lies. And I'm tired of being alone.

You're Not Sorry - Taylor Swift

All this time I was wasting
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down
And it's taken me this long
Baby, but I've figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you
Baby, like I did before
You're not sorry, no no

You're looking so innocent
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could have loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold
And you've got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being the last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Because it's worked each time before

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you
Baby, like I did before
You're not sorry, no no
You're not sorry

You had me crawling for you, honey
And it never would have gone away
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you
Baby, like I did before
You're not sorry, no no