Tuesday, March 10, 2009

I should be asleep, but I'm not.

It's funny to me how life doesn't get easier as you age. When we're little, we look forward to this crazy phenomenon called "adulthood." It seems perfect. What they don't understand is that just because you have the ability and right to make your own choices, you still spend half the time trying to figure out your place in this world and who you are supposed to be. Purpose remains a mystery. Pain is normal.. even constant at times. One minute you think you know who you are, and the next minute you're looking around wondering how the crap you got here. You think you know the people closest to you, but you may not be right. My life seems to enbody the word "complicated." And I'm really tired of it.

Say Goodbye - Ashlee Simpson

You don't know me like you knew me
You stopped listening the moment that I needed you the most
You can't see me like you saw me
The truth comes easy
But it's hard for you to pull me from the ground

So I scream
Scream 'cause it hurts
Your every word
Cuts me inside and leaves me worse
There's no way back
But what if there was?
You'd still be you and I'd still need to say goodbye

Maybe you don't love me like I love you, baby
'Cause the broken in you doesn't make me run
There is beauty in the dark side
I'm not frightened
Without it I could never feel the sun

So I scream
Scream 'cause it hurts
Your every word
Cuts me inside and leaves me worse
There's no way back
But what if there was?
You'd still be you and I'd still need to say goodbye

Nothing will change
No matter what you say
I'm still going to be the same
The harder we try, the harder we fight
Can't get it right
So I scream
Scream 'cause it hurts
Your every word
Cuts me inside and leaves me worse
There's no way back
But what if there was?
You'd still be you and I'd still need to say goodbye

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