Oh, so easily you're over me..

Here's what is on my mind: if you know you are doing the right thing, but you also know you are doing it for all the wrong reasons, is it still the right thing to do? "Most things break, including hearts. The lessons of life amount not to wisdom, but to scar tissue and callus" (Wallace Stegner - The Spectator Bird).

My dog, Nandi, found this weird ball in the house. I have absolutely NO idea where it came from, but she's obsessed. If she hits it hard enough, it lights up and makes weird noises. I can't tell if she's scared of it and trying to kill it, or playing with it because she thinks it is fun. Regardless, she won't let me near it. I think maybe she's trying to protect me from it.

I bought the newest Jody Picoult book the other day called "Handle with Care." Her books seriously rock my world. She makes you think about things that you may not be entirely comfortable with, which makes her amazing. I actually end up underlining certain sentences and paragraphs because they hit me so hard. I thought I'd share:

"It's funny, isn't it, how you can be 100 percent sure of your opinion on something until it happens to you" (29).

"Tempering: to heat slowly and gradually... In cooking, tempering is about making something stronger by taking your time... Or, in other words, it's the substance you've got when you start that determines the outcome" (15).

"Things break all the time. Glass, and dishes, and fingernails. Cars and contracts and potato chips. You can break a record, a horse, a dollar. You can break the ice. There are coffee breaks and lunch breaks and prison breaks. Day breaks, waves break, voices break. Chains can be broken. So can silence, and fever... Promises break. Hearts break... Fault lines. These are the places where the earth breaks apart. These are the spots where earthquakes originate, where volcanoes are born. Or in other words: the world is crumbling under us; it's the solid ground beneath our feet that's an illusion" (1).

"'Maybe,' Sean said, 'she wasn't meant to be here with us. Maybe this is God's will.'
'What about MY will?' I asked. 'I want her. I've wanted her all along'" (10).

[In reference to the teacup ride at Disneyworld]
"The family seemed so happy it made my stomach hurt to watch it. I knew that the people on the commercial probably weren't even a real family - but I WANTED them to be one. I wanted to believe they were laughing, smiling, even as they were spinning out of control" (18).