I'm investing in caution tape.

Max and I decided today that his bedroom (one he shared with Ryan what seems like forever ago and yesterday all at the same time) needs a huge "X" put across the doorway in "Caution" tape. Or maybe we should just brick it over. This stupid apartment is so painful for both of us. Poor Max.. his girlfriend of (on and off) 5 years opted to dump him the other night for good. Now, granted, she was cheating on him and he deserves better, but funny how that doesn't make you feel any better. He's taken to sleeping on the couch because his bedroom smells like her no matter how much Febreeze we spray. I can't get him to eat, which is REALLY bad because his metabolism is so fast that you can already tell he's dropping weight. We both live here, but really, all we both can think about is fleeing the memories that haunt this stupid house. I spend hours walking Nandi to get away, and spend as much time in my room as possible. Life is ridiculously painful right now. And I leave for Alaska in 2 days for a visit. Wish me luck.

"Motorcycles in the parking lot
Revving their engines and it just won't stop
Matches the noises screaming in my head
Houston, I think we got a problem

Where does everybody go when they go?
They go so fast, I don't think they know
We hate so fast and we love too slow
London, I think we got a problem

And when I think about it
I just can't think about it
I try to drink about it
But I keep spinning

Ave Mary A, where did you go? Where did you go?
How did you know to get out of a world gone mad?
Help me let go of the chaos around me
The devil that hounds me
I need you to tell me, "Child, be still"
Child be still, child be still

Broken hearts all around the spot
I can't help thinking that we lost the plot
Suicide bomber, and a student shot
Tokyo, I think we got a problem

But for that they have got a pill
If that don't kill you then the side effects will
If we don't kill each other then the side effects will
K-Town, I think we've got a problem

If the darkest hour comes before the light
Where is the light? Where is the light?
If the darkest hour comes before the light
Where is the light? Where is the light?

Ave Mary A, where did you go? Where did you go?
How did you know to get out of a world gone mad?
Help me, help me, let go of the chaos around me
The devil that hounds me
I need you to tell me, "Child, be still"
Child be still, child be still